closed.

i end everything here tonight.

duties pwn hiro ._.

have been doing so many ops lately.
last Saturday, NE show which also means,
the NDP preview for primary school kids.
on Sunday, some limkimsan died.
had to go down to the crematorium.
for nothing -_- ..
and tonight, went down to Istana.
for some ops, which i think it`d be safer not mentioning -.-
and on this coming saturday,
one more..
National Day preview -.- ...
and im the only guy who got 2 ops in one week
and the days are like only 2 days apart.

bottom line; NS sucks. =(

whining session over.
back to reality.

i realised something today.
if you`ve been reading my blog,
you should rmb the human nature post.
well now, here`s the bad news.
it`s mainly for guys thou.
man`s ego + human nature is a very bad combi.
-_-...
and i for one, am no exception.
and this shit is really making life really hard for me.

i think i`ll talk about this some other day. (:
because i`ve been really emo,
like everyone else i know, i guess. o.o"

lying under the night sky,
i`m looking for a star.
a star that i know
that could guide me when i`m lost
to give me warmth when i`m cold
to be with me when i`m alone.

but i couldn`t find it.
i felt a slight ache in my heart.
i felt a crack in my soul.
i felt a tear forming in my eye.
and so i closed my eyes
and then i realise
the star i`ve been searching for
could never be seen by anyone...

this star has always been with me,

in my heart.

6smiles.

=D
(:
xD
=)
^^
:D

proven right was the one thing i was afraid of.

6smiles.

=D
(:
xD
=)
^^
:D

proven right was the one thing i was afraid of.

my senses.

i feel it.
everytime i feel it,
nothing good comes out of it.

so now,
if my senses dont fail me this time,
who's gonna be there for me.
who's gonna be the one to prepare me for the worst.

...
my destiny.
will it be the one i chose?

the reasons why..

its never me to say exactly the reasons why.
i tend to keep it all inside.
i am never really all that good at expressions.
but sometimes i still try.
so whos to say i'm wrong or right,
when in fact they never really knew me deep inside.

d i s a p p o i n t e d .

one is said to be lucky to be able to see.
yet to me,
as lucky as sight is bestowed upon me,
sight can sometimes be a torment.

...
sigh.
bye all.

still.

i still feel pissed off. =why why why...
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okays, heres something i wanna share
but its something i really despise.
something i heard from someone,
talking about someone else.

once upon a time.
there lived this bastard.
whenever he quarrels or have problems
with this girl he likes(?),
he acts like hes so poorthing.
like he has a whole world full of problems.
and then lets everyone feel guilty,
feel obliged to give in to him
not because of pity,
but simply because hes a friend.
still, should he be making use of this,
to play with the minds of others?
hmmm. (:

-.- nandayo !
dont know if the faggots will read this,
but yup, thats about all i wanna say.
and its so disappointing to have friends like that.
hah!
oh whatever. =.= ~

pissed.

okay,
i just read some doods blog and
it totally makes me sick,
and pisses me off.

so yeah. i just wanna let the world know,
im fucking pissed.

ARGH.
screw the nerds. ^^

sometimes...

sometimes,
i do things that make me feel real bad,
but i still do it in the end.
sometimes,
i do things that make me feel really good,
but i dont do it cause i know it`d make me happy.
sometimes,
i do things i feel is right,
yet others might think its really wrong.
sometimes,
i try to be myself,
but people say, thats not the hiro i know.
sometimes,
i make mistakes,
yet i never wanna admit it.
sometimes,
i wanna make people around me happy,
but it doesn't turn out the way i expected in the end.
sometimes,
i feel like i feel like life is meaningless,
yet i just couldnt bear to leave.

life is so full of shit.
yet sometimes, some things happen,
and shit turns to fertilizers to help you grow.

life, reality,
its just so full of ironies.
=why ? beats me.
ask god. maybe he just likes to play around.

sometimes, i feel so useless cause even thou i know the problems, i never seem to be able to resolve it.unable to cheer you up...